Week 3/4

Already getting too busy to post weekly. Wondered how long I was going to be able to keep it up for 😅

First 2 weeks of solo maternity leave have been fairly successful! We registered Rileys birth, got discharged from the midwife, had lots more visitors and managed a few cafe and pub visits 😊

I had my first day on my own with 2 kids! Was a bit daunting but actually 100x easier with a newborn and a toddler than being 9 months pregnant and a toddler! Riley slept most of the morning so could spend some time with Morgan, which was nice, feel like I've been a bit absent from her recently with being so heavily pregnant and then recovering from surgery. It's been difficult to do things with her.

Then had my second day on my own with both of them ... And a migraine!!! Luckily was with my friend who didn't mind watching Morgan and taking her to the toilet several times and changing her when she had an accident!! While I fed Riley and tried to be able to see again!! Felt rough all day but got through it!

And my 3rd day with both of them and I feel like I'm absolutely smashing it! Rare for me to think good things about myself but I really feel like it's going well. Me and Morgan painted some bunnies today while Riley slept 

And we went to playgroup just the 3 of us. Really feel like I'm getting back to myself and feeling like I can do things again without any restrictions!! 

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