C-section revovery

I still can't believe I had to have another cesarean! I guess deep down I kind of knew that it would end up that way. Dno why, just a feeling I guess. My body is obviously just not meant to give birth naturally. I think I thought I'd feel like a failure if I didn't do it "properly" this time. I am never going to know what it feels like to have a natural birth. But I think I'm OK with it. I don't feel like I gave up, I just didn't have a choice in the end. I couldn't mentally carry on.

I didn't write much about the recovery last time so it's difficult to remember but I think it has been marginally better / quicker this time around. The improvement I saw every day was crazy. The way I felt those first few days out of hospital, I thought it was gonna take weeks! But here we are less than 2 weeks later and pretty much back to full movement.

They discharge you 24 hours after the surgery!!! Just one day! We were in hospital with Morgan for 4 days, which at the time was awful but looking back now was probably a blessing. Those first 2 days at home were horrendous. The complete lack of mobility and so dependant on somebody else to help you stand up. I couldn't figure out how to get out of bed, it wasnt just that it hurt, I just couldn't figure out a way to get my body to do what it needed to sit me up. I needed the hospital bed that you could press a button and it sat up for you. 

The amount of pills I was taking I dno how I didn't rattle. Ibuprofen every 6 hours, paracetamol every 6h but 3h after paracetamol, antibiotics for an infection, pregnacare vitamins and a blood thinning injection every night for 10 days! It was a lot. 

They take the dressing off after 5 days! I don't think I looked at my scar for about a month last time. But I looked straight away this time. So swollen, so bruised and some serious stitches! We went for our first walk on day 5 too. Very very slowly. 

And since then things have improved every day, I've walked a little bit more each day, I've finished the medication and slowly but surely got movement back. My tummy is still very sore obviously and I'm terrified every time Morgan gets too excited jumping around near me. But walking and getting around is pretty much back to normal. 

Just gotta wait 4 more weeks til I can drive and then hopefully everything will be back to normal 





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