Imagine.

... Being someone's bridesmaid less than 6 years ago and not even telling them you've set a date for your Wedding.

AND Letting them find our via a Facebook post that you got married. 

AND THEN sending them a message wishing them a happy wedding anniversary. 

I don't have any intention of raking over the last 6 years of our friendship. We clearly have a very different perception of what has happened and I don't think anything I say is gonna convince you otherwise. 

Im not going to reply to you because I'm just done. I don't wish to waste anymore time thinking about it, but feel like I need to rant somewhere to fully get it out of my brain. 

Firstly, the group WhatsApp chat didn't just "suddenly stop" you didn't respond to anything for 3 months, we always had another chat alongside it and used both of them but after zero response for that amount of time it seemed pointless to carry on using it. 

Secondly, we didn't drift apart. You stopped responding / wanting to do things. And I get if there was reasons for you not wanting to come to "events" as you put it. But I repeatedly asked about meeting up while I was on mat leave to absolutely no response. The last time we messaged was me saying let me know when your back from holiday and we will arrange something and you just didn't bother. And that was when I gave up trying. You just expect effort and give none in return. 

Finally, we clearly have different definitions of what being a friend is. You should be able to go years without speaking to a true friend and just pick up exactly where you left off. A close friend isn't someone I speak to regularly, its someone who means something to me, that has been a big part of my life and I've been through shit with. Who I want to share the big stuff with. I couldn't really care less if you message me saying happy birthday or not. But having support as a new mum from someone who had just been through it would have meant everything. And Yeh I know, its never about me, it's always about you and how hard your life is and of course I wouldn't understand anything about anxiety... The fact you have even suggested that puts the nail in the coffin tbh. 

Congratulations on the wedding. I hope you have a very happy life and get everything out of it you want. 








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