Mum Life

So overwhelmed! Finished work feeling crappy, like I haven't achieved anything.  Bring the washing in, hang some more out, take the dog for a walk and now just trying to do an asda order, while cooking dinner and my dog voms in the kitchen! Husband walks in, says eww and then goes and watches TV.  Guess I'm cleaning that up then 😖

I just got a letter... The court case has been dropped!! Just like that. As ridiculously as this nightmare came into my life, it's gone again. What an absolutely ridiculous process. I feel like a weight has been lifted. I knew it was adding stress to my life but I didn't realise it was the main issue. How amazing. Such relief! I also got an unexpected pay rise at work and my mum baked me a chocolate cake. What an unexpected week of good news.  And in 2 weeks Morgans days at nursery change, so I will work Tues to Thurs which I think will help massively with work motivation (I have no idea why, it just feels like it will be a better balance but we will see!)  AND. A bottle of prosecco and a bottle of wine last night led to me n my husband having a bit of a heart to heart. I still don't think he fully understands where I'm coming from with the whole mental load thing and how much I actually do but he admitted he had been a bit shit and consumed too much by work. But that h...

My husband and I met 12 years ago on a ski season. It was very much a whirlwind with all the attributes of a holiday romance - everything moved fast, we fell in love quickly, we both had other people waiting for us at home in our "real" lives. If I'm completely honest, I don't think either of us thought it would last, despite the romantic notion of us being "meant to be". So many things had to fall into place for us to even meet - both do a ski season, both do a season at the same time, both be sent to the same resort to work in the same bar. We convinced ourselves it was fate. And here we are 12 years later, a year of long distance, a 200 mile move, a flat, an engement ring, 2 houses, a wedding, a dog and a child. 12 years together, 5 of them married. It hasn't all being easy, after a year of long distance, seeing each other once every 2 weeks to moving in together we were about ready to kill each other. But we got through it. The death of my ex boyfrie...

 As always, I don't know where to start. But the blank page is haunting me and usually starting with this sentence gets the post going... My life feels like a mess. I don't know what I want in any aspect of life. Work is tough. I came back from maternity leave in November last year. I work 3 days a week doing a job that is so complicated it is not made for part time. I've always been good at seperating work from life and the moment I log off my laptop I don't think about it again until I log back on. But when you only work 3 days a week, coming back on Monday having not thought about it makes you feel like you've been hit by a tonne of bricks and by the time I finally feel caught up again and back with it it's time to log off again. It means my motivation is low and often feel like what's the point in catching back up to just get left behind again. I've never been a big career girl, I got the first job I applied for over a decade ago and have only moved ...