Mum Life

Im struggling. I can't decide what to be sad about. That's how shit things are right now.  I'm trying to be positive. To look forwards. But I am just so fucking sad. And I can't even do anything to cheer myself up because I'm soo damn pregnant.  Although not being able to drink 12 pints right now is probably a good thing. I feel like I've lost so much this year.  The first back at the start of the year, a girl who was my bridesmaids (see previous posts). I guess to be fair, she was gone long ago. But it came to a head this year.  The second in August. I still dno what to say about this. I never even replied when he told me he couldn't be in my life anymore. I wrote out a million responses... Angry, logical, agreeing, disagreeing, angry again. But nothing I could have said really mattered, it was for the best. It was better to just say nothing at all. The third, only 3 weeks ago. My doggy 😭😭😭 I miss her so much. It's so strange losing a dog, everything...