Mum Life

Forgot to mention... At the wedding at the end of the night, a complete stranger came up to me and said "I've been very impressed with you today" I assumed she was talking about how good Morgan had been, so I said "Yeh, she's been a little angel hasn't she"  And she said "well Yeh she has, but I was talking about you. You've been amazing with her, you must be exhausted but you've stayed til the end!"  It was such a lovely thing to hear and I've been thinking about it ever since. Strangers should praise strangers more often!! ❤️

This weekend we went to a wedding! With a 3 month old! Unfortunately, this cute little outfit didn't quite make it to the wedding, but at least I got a pic before it was ruined! 💩 It was Kris' best mate who's been trying to get married for the past 2 years and finally managed it 4th time lucky! It was a lovely day and so great to see everyone that we haven't seen for a very long time! Omg it was hard work though 😅 I am absolutely exhausted. Holding a 14lb baby for most of a day is certainly a work out! My whole body aches. I looked after Morgan, while Kris went off with his mates. I figured this would happen so was happy enough, it was so nice to see him enjoying himself. Plus, plenty of people were meeting Morgan for the first time so wanted a cuddle, so it was fine 😊... It was a long day, I can't remember the last time we went out for a full day event, what with covid and being pregnant... It must have been years! We finally got to bed at 2am and Mo...

Who would have thought the hardest part about having a baby is also having a dog?! In the early weeks of Morgan, trying to take jazz out for 2 walks a day felt like the hardest thing in the world. How do I hold a lead and push a pram? How do I pick up poo if she's in the carrier instead? How do I get out of the house before lunchtime?? There was then a brief period where having a dog gave me a reason to get out of the house. Having to take jazz out twice a day helped us to get into a bit of a routine.  Unfortunately I have a black lab and so she eats anything and everything. So she is sick A LOT. This time it was different though. She wouldn't stop being sick and was shaking. It was just horrendous, I felt so helpless!  Trying to look after them both at the same time seemed impossible. Luckily Morgan napped through a lot of it but I dno how I would have coped if she hadn't! People who have more than one child are amazing! ...  My sister in law was pregnant at ...

It feels like now is the time I should be starting to enjoy maternity leave. Its 3 months since Morgan was born, we're past the "what the fuck is going on?!" stage and settling into Mummy/Daughter time. But. What am I supposed to do?? Is the thought that seems to be constantly running through my head at the moment. If Morgan falls asleep during the day for a long period of time when we're at home I'm constantly wondering if that's what she's "supposed" to be doing. And if it's OK that I just let her sleep? And is it OK if I enjoy some me time while she sleeps? Or am I "supposed" to be doing something else?  When you Google - how much should my 3 month old sleep? The answer is comical. "Babies up to 3 and 4 months old need between 14 and 16 hours of sleep in a 24 hour period but some might need more and some might need less" - so basically, they do what they want to do and there is no "supposed to"  I mean look at...

New years eve... The day to write a long, soppy social media post about how 2021 has been the best year of your life or so it seems for everyone who's had a baby this year. But it hasn't been the best year of my life and that makes me feel like shit. The dreaded mum guilt.  I'm not saying it's been awful, but..  1. There's been a global pandemic.  2. I was pregnant for 9 months of it.  3. I've been through some of the worst pain I've ever felt and had to have major surgery! Firstly, My year started with chronic back pain. It was horrendous... I don't think I had ever been in so much pain, I couldn't sleep and nothing I did made me feel any better. I had an appointment with a physio in mid Feb and he told me I'd pulled my rhomboid muscle and gave me some exercises to do. After a week of doing them the pain was a million times worse, so I went to see a chiropractor instead. She told me that it was likely due to the hormones released during pregnanc...

"So do you think you'll have another" "well it will be different when the next one comes along"  "I can't understand people who only want one"  Morgans first christmas has been lovely but my god will I be happy to stop socialising for a bit! Why is there so much pressure to have another?! I've barely had this one too minutes and it's all people seem to think about. I guess it's always the same... People are always looking to the next thing... You've been together a certain length of time and people are asking when he's gonna pop the question... You get married and on your wedding day people are asking when the first little one is gonna come along. Why can't we just live in the moment?! I've found myself sat thinking about it all the time.... Do I want another? Can I put myself through this again? Am I being selfish if I can't?? The relationship I have with my sister is amazing, can I really deny Morgan that?? All goo...