Maternity leave is one big contradiction.
I feel like I've spent half my mat leave wishing my baby would go to sleep and the other half wishing they would wake up. One minute I cannot wait to go back to work, the next I'm dreading it. I can't wait to stop breastfeeding. I'm glad to have managed to breast feed for this long and don't want to stop yet. I am sick of spending all day at home on my own. I wish I could just have a day at home! I am too busy to do anything. I'm bored of having nothing to do. I am so happy. I cry myself to sleep.